Friday, October 30, 2009

APT make up show



As promised
I uploaded some of photos that i took
when i was one of the make up show model
for APT Academy last year

don't be surprised if you don't recognize me
lolx~
^^












2 more to go

just had my first final exam paper for the semester
okay.. as usual
i screwed up AGAIN
so.. WHATEVER
anyway i tried my best ady
i read up everything
tried to list out whatever i can squeeze out
from my useless brain
tried to throw out whatever i can
at least remember a little bit
i have done my best
so two more to go before this semester ends
the next one is a tricky one
hope i wont fall into Mr M's trap lar

tomorrow is another relaxing day for me
cause am going to see All American Rejects Concert!!
HURRAY~~~
anyway hopefully i wont become sardine tmr~ lolx


Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Babie is here!!



just drove back home
my dearest babie~ =)
waited for more than 2 weeks
to finally meet my babie
my babie is midnight blue in color

i was totally blur when i just got in earlier
cause i have no idea where is the double signal button is
lolx~
spend at least 2 minutes
to figure out where is the button
because i got conned from the salesman
he told me it's sumwhere on the side
i tried to look for it everywhere
and i finally saw the button
in the middle
alamak
it took me quite some time to reach home
not dare to drive that fast
scare of bumpers
scare of wrong estimation

now only i have realized
my babie is much bigger than my baby
my baby is now Jo's baby
lolx~

i guess that's the disadvantage of
getting the new car at night
cause it's too dark for me
to explore everything inside there

can't bring the car anywhere yet
because from tomorrow onwards
there's some small renovation on
so my babie and my bro's car
are gonna
stay inside for at least a week
anyway i don't really have the time
to bring it everywhere
lolx~

spent the whole day
waiting and doing nothing
and my lappie has been acting so weird earlier
that was really freaking me out
i just manage to back up my thesis folders
i am so gonna format it later =)
gotta catch up with more studies d!!
i am so S.L.O.W!!
alamak~
just 14 articles really can kill me!!
kill me cause of boredom
and i kept on facebooking
these couple of days

PLEASE HELP!!!!
hahahahaha...

work hard work hard
if i don't wanna screw up this time
with Dr Shahrim's paper



Monday, October 26, 2009

你还好吗?

总会无意间的想起他
所有人都很想念他
都会在他的facebook wall上留言
每次看到他的中学朋友给他的留言
我就十分感触

时常会去他facebook看看新的留言
看看他以前的照片
回想起有他在身边的日子
还记得以前还蛮喜欢作弄他
或者说是欺负他
他总是笑笑脸的说,“O吾好O甘样~”
一个很好脾气
确有超级爱美的男生

在同一个月里
两个教授都提到了他
总会有教授问我们
为何全班只有女生?没有男生?
这时候 我的心情开始变得难过
突然又想起他了
难过并不是因为我又想起他
而是可惜他没能和我们一起上课
可惜他没能和大家一起生活下去
虽然他已经尽力了
尽力的对抗到底

在他住院的日子里
我并没有时常去看他
除了因为忙之外
有时候是忘了有个朋友在医院的奋斗中
抱歉 我真得很不应该
可是他从来不会怪我们
他总是很明白事理

偶尔 他会打电话给我
和我闲聊
问我近况
有时候 我想打给他
可是又怕骚扰到他休息
更怕不懂和他了什么
想和他分享学校的事情
又担心会让他伤心
有时候 只好传简讯给他
可是得等好几天才收到他的回复
他应该是太累了吧
所以都很少回简讯

很后悔想当初不狠狠地逃掉那堂法文课
和大家一起去唱K
提早为他庆生的那一次
没想到竟然是他和大家最后一次的会面
不过之后听说他们玩得很开心
尤其是他
可惜她那天提早回家了
他真得不能太操劳

收到简讯说他病危的时候
我真得很害怕
可是又不能飞去看他
因为听说 他并不认得任何人
眼睛是睁开的
可是目光是不集中的
那时候的我 和老妈跟老妹在逛街
立刻打了通电话
和朋友约好明天一起去看他

整个晚上都很不安心
一直深怕他会熬不到今天
所以我们安排明天一早就去医院看他
整个晚上 我都没有关机
深怕会有什么急事
结果还是没机会看到他

最后一次见到他
应该是在他的葬礼上吧
气氛没有我想象中的悲惨
因为他的朋友都知道
他不希望看到我们伤心
不希望看到我们哭泣
庆幸我能够送他最后一程
感觉上 没有遗憾了
唯一遗憾的是 他没有熬过去


我真的很想念他

Friday, October 16, 2009

busy busy busy

Life has never been as depressing as now
i am having 2 assignments on hand
and another thesis to submit up
next week i am supposed to submit my thesis draft
for my supervisor to have a look
before I am submitting it
by the end of the semester

scared
worried

i am always the one that are not allowed to ask others
but when other ask me
i am obliged to tell them
at least they think it that way

i can handle this on my hand
TOTALLY
i am confident with myself
just that i am uncertain

hopefully my instinct will not be
bringing any trouble
to be obstacles of my graduation


have been really observing the Uni lately
i think i am going to miss the place soon
even i am not graduating yet
but i won't be around the campus next sem
so i am sure i am going to miss my faculty
miss the library
exclude all those unwanted noise

emo...

another period of emo-ING
i feel like i am there
but actually i am not there
just feel so moodless
and getting more and more ignorant
with whatever that is going on
around me

sorry if i am being invincible for now
but i am coming back soon

updates regarding internship

i will be officially starting my internship
at 4th January 2010
my working hours will be
9am - 6pm
every Monday to Friday

initially they asked me to choose either to start at 4th or 11th Jan
but i would rather start it earlier
^^

they said they are doing something with
the parking space that i am going to get
so they will gimme a ring at a closer time later


p/s: Vivi, u reminded me to give some updates
hope you will be getting ur updates very soon! ^^

Sunday, October 11, 2009

flyer girl CUM model

today got another job from APT
before i went there
i thought there is going to be a show or something
and i might need to walk around
with my awkward way of cat walk
lolx~

when i reached there
the most exciting thing was
i met KOON!!
it's been months since i last saw her!!!
and that was when we meet up to get our pay cheque
but couldn't talk to her at all
just wave a hello and then i follow Nic to the booth d

once i am at the booth
then only i realized
there are only 2 models will be there for the day
so meaning things is not as what i have expected

so i waited for another model to come
luckily she had brought an extra tube
if not i really can't imagine
how am i going to dress up
with that dress they provided

my make up artist was a guy, Charles
he looked soooo young
i feel like he is only form 4 or form 5
alamak...
but his skill is great though
his skin and complexion and baby face
is the type that made all the girls jealous!!
hahaha..
beh tahan him..

Charles & Jess

see his face?
super fair and smooth lo~
argghhh.
so envy!! =.=


still in the progress
took this in the WC

today's job was simple
just standing there and giving out leaflets
and most of the time
Shernny and I spent more time sitting on the chairs
and we only need to pose for photographing
whenever there are request from the crowd
of course we need to hide some part of our face
lolx~
the bad thing is
i have really burden my neck and shoulder a lot today
because of the heavy decoration on my neck
as well as the one on my head!
that is super tiring and exhaustive
i nearly can't stand and position my head straight
with that don't know how many kilos head decor
can u see how "high" i had became?



anyway Shernny was a nice girl to work with
obviously she is one of those famous freelancer
in the industry
i guess i always able to get to know
a lot of famous people like her
among the freelancers
but i can never learn much from them
lolx~
they are really having a wide networking
until u cant ever imagine
because they seems to know almost every girl that i knew
hahaha..
super creepy!!

Shernny & Jess

met Sharon Eng in the Expo today
she is still the same
charming and cool
but at least she is putting smiles on her face
it's quite different from the last time i saw her in Star Hill
i might get the chance of working for Star Hill again this year
cause she sort of promised to ask me along this year
hopefully she will remember me by then
lolx~

though meeting JC again is the last thing that i ever wanted
but i am quite scare to face their GM, Samantha again
perhaps she won't be remember me by then
lolx~

photos will be updated once i got them from others

had quite an experience today
had fun today as well
just that i am really really exhausted now
and there are sooo many works to be done!!

gosh
better catch up faster starting tomorrow!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

test drive

just got back from outside
i went for the test drive just now
it was great and awkward
lolz~

i went to Perodua to test drive Viva
this is supposed to be last week's appointment
but somehow i feel bit grateful that
we have made it this week
because i have realized from their website that
Perodua is having a promotion start from today!
and it only going to last for 3 days
muahahaha

initially my plan was just to get the Viva
but when i got there this morning
the salesman told me Viva doesn't have any power sterling
and the promotion now is 1K discount

as for Viva Elite standard
the new version of Viva
it is having the 3K discount!!
omg!~~
the price difference of 4K at the first place
is not only2K different
so i hesitated

honestly i am fond of Viva Elite
because of it's stylish and nicer
with power sterling somemore
lolx~
but the big boss haven't comment on anything yet
perhaps tonight need to discuss further and see how
i only have one more day to go
to decide whether i want to take this offer
because after this weekend
the discount price will be reduce to 1K instead of 3K for Viva Elite
if i am really taking this promotion offer
i might as well get my car
much earlier than expected
by end of Oct, i will be getting my own car d
hahahaha
perhaps it's time for me
to worry how to protect my beloved new car soon

i also went for the test drive of Hyundai i10
i would use expensive to describe the car
in terms of driving
it is more or less the same for me
i mean between Viva and i10
anyway, the good thing is i10 is
definitely much much more expensive than Viva
both the buying price and maintenance cost in future
and the fuel efficiency is the most concerned point for me
when i was driving it
i felt awkward
perhaps it's all because of
i feel the pressure of driving the expensive car around
test driving it
though just few thousands difference
but i feel so pressurized when i am driving i10
anyway i guess i am more comfortable with
locally manufactured car for the moment

if everything went well
tomorrow i need to be there again to settle the buying car thingy
and at the same time
i am still waiting for APT's phone call
Jessica told me that
someone is gonna call me today
but no one is trying to reach me until now
so i guess i will just let it be
because i am not free tomorrow anyway

internship

i wanted to do this for quite some time already
but i think most of you all already heard about it from me
before i can post this blog post

i have found myself an internship already

HOORAY!!

it is Malaysia Heinz Company

they had confirmed me already
contract was already signed by me
and submitted back to them

so the good news is
my allowance is relatively higher
compared to any of the interns in the industry
i guess if i say higher than in all the industry
it may not be too over
hahahahaha
except for the nutritionist girl
that she got 2K for her promoter job kind of internship
rm 1200 per month is really high high for me
initially i thought i heard Ivy saying rm1000 over the phone
i was thrilled and excited already
but then when i proceed on reading the contract
that she sent to me
i was totally shocked
hahahahaha...
the only reason that i can think of
"maybe they need me to use my car"
anyway, i think it won't be that bad
cause i am driving Viva anyway
should be quite fuel efficient

and i am very grateful with that
even though i am not sure
what are they expecting from me
what are they planing exactly for me
but i think it's time for me
to gain back my adventurous spirits

it's not that easy for me to get this internship company
because i don't have any of the connection
as someone has
because i don't want to waste any much longer time
to compete with others with those companies
that get through my faculty
that would be another torturing act for me
because their speed is darn slow
and i know cannot really blame the UPM staff
cause those food companies
also are those keep on delaying to reply them
i can see that they are going for interviews in a big group
which is something that i would never choose to do
because the more people going together
the lesser chances you will be getting anything
or else only one or two person will be getting something
it's all depends on LUCK

anyway though my big plan of escaping to other state
is officially announced as a failure
but i am still feeling satisfied with the result at this moment
at least i get to work in a company
that i find it potentially helping me in future
i really hope that being with Heinz is going to
change my perception of staying back in the industry
and i must i MUST grab this chance
and perform as good as i do

praying really hard that
they won't be so cruel to have terminated me
before my internship ends

a lot of seniors and friends
checked on me
whether i have got my internship already
thanks a lot to them
because of their concern
and how nice they had listened to
all my grumbles and complains

thanks for all the wishes that i got from them
that i am going to do well
and learn a lot soon
with Heinz

THANKS!!!



Friday, October 09, 2009

lunch gathering

i had lunch with nee today
and i am glad that she is driving me today
lolx~
it's really good to be the passenger

haven't seen her for quite some time already
i can't really recall when
but surely not in 2009
the last time we met was in Pn Lee's house

we had discussed where to have our lunch earlier
but since i said i am not sure where can we get nice foods
so she said she will bring me to a cafe
TWINS SISTERS
somewhere near South City Plaza

the place was quite alright
just that it is quite small
and we had to sit in the smoking zones (that i assumed)
cause we are sitting outside
whereby no air conditioner are available
Nee said there are still some seats upstairs
but i insisting not to go up and check out
cause i gotta bring my heavy lappie and bag go up
if we really want to go up

i enjoyed myself for the lunch
because we manage to catch up with each other
not to say a lot
but at least i know more updates from her
about her, about her sister
and about her plan
the best thing of the outing with her
we really had some memory flash back
starting from form1 until form5
those loving memories
made us both LMAO
the funniest thing was
we saw someone that looked like Pn Yap from the back
Pn Yap is the most geng BM teacher that i have ever had
she is cool and fierce when you are new to her
but she is very friendly and nice
when you got to know her for some time
especially the moment when she is "tahan ketawa"
really miss her a lot
we talked about how we apologize to the teachers
that got angry because of some silly things that we did
or we even never did
this is really funny

a lot sweet and happy memories came back to me
out of no where
and i really missed those days a lot
i really glad that
my mum insisting making me to transfer school to AMC
because i had the best 5 years of student life
back then and back there
if not for her
i guess i won't be getting to know all my besties now
and i really glad that i am one of AMC girls
proud to be one of them

even though AMC is not as cute as she was before
but i still love her a lot
even though i know that if i step in AMC
there might not be much familiar faces there
but i still love her a lot
because with her
i always can find a lot of nice and happy memories
those are the days that i treasured the most
even the school song also
is the best school song that i had ever heard!
simply love to sing it
love the lyrics

i love my school
and i love my friends
really feeling grateful that i have u all
here with me

Saturday, October 03, 2009

C'est la vie

最近有太多的事情发生了
让我真得觉得很累很累
总觉得没有人能够明白自己
总会觉得没有人真的懂我
总会有种谴责别人的心情存在
谁是谁非或许根本不是重点
应该说只是观点不同而已

没有人天生是完美的
愿意改变
并不代表能够改革成功
〈死性不改〉
这成语真的很贴切
奈何
至少有努力过啊


忘了从几时开始
我开始不相信别人
总觉得人脑构造很复杂
可是人的情绪却更加复杂
更难去理解

从以前的无知
到现在的
无时无刻猜疑着别人
真得让我觉得很累
尝试想要做些什么
可是却徒劳无功
让我当初的满满的热诚
落得如此的冷漠
觉得还是算了吧
不值得
不值得再浪费时间了

每次觉得失望的时候
就觉得下次应该会绝望了吧
可是每次的每次
就会后无理智的
难以抗拒的
愿意选择在相信多一次
绝望的数量真的数也数不完

或许下一次
真的会心死了吧